A Giant Vermin

I want to cry. I want to cry and just want to be in that state.
I want to submerge myself in my own tears. I want to see myself drowning in it. I want to almost die.
I want to suffocate. I want to feel helpless & powerless. I want to crawl in my own worry-pool.
Only to be rescued by you. I want you to rescue me. I want you to take me out of that cesspool of misery & pessimism.
I want you to scold me. I want you to punish me. I want you to laugh at me. I want you to slap me red & blue.
I fucking have no clue as to how would you strangulate me. But strangulate me by all means. Hang me from the most decrepit tree. Shoot donkey shit at my dead face. Take pictures of it. Laugh at it. Then again bring my body back and shred it to pieces. Distribute it to millions of beetles.
Because that is who I am. A giant vermin. Someone who is a fucking insect with a human face and body of man.

I want you to absolve me from all this. I know only you have the power. You only can kick me where it hurts the most. Only you can put pepper spray on my wounds where it is most lethal.
I want to submit to only you. You are everything I think about. You are the reason I want to die. Because I know that you are subjected to a lot of suffering because of me.
I can't help it. I am helpless to the maximum. The level of grief inside me is venomous to all the people. But to you it is claustrophobic and inevitable. You have been going through this by no fault of yours. But I have accused you in my mind a million times. I had thought you have done this to me. I don't know what makes me think of that but now I feel I am stupid to live. Please grab by my neck and put my face in a shit-pit. Make me drink urea. Give me more wounds. Because I love your wounds. Because I love the pain inflicted by you.
Because I love the way you heal those wounds. Because I love you. I would always do that, till the last drop of my body fluid.

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"I", "me" and "we"

Blogger! Blogger! I’m here,
Don’t get afraid as I’m not so near.
I also read, and I also drink.
I also sight, and I also fight.
I also feel, and I also want to kill.
However, I don’t want to slay people,
I want to transfigure the belief, approach and emotion,
which drives the insane to harm our nation.
I’m also religious, and I’m also spiritual.
I also talk, and I also laugh.
I also hate, but not everyone,
actually, I don’t despise people,
I detest those who are foes,
people who are lunatic to add to our woes.
The problem also lies within me.
The seed of hatred has also tried to germinate within me.
If I simply replace the letter ‘I’,
we could lead a life which would please every eye.
Let me try, let me fail.
At least, give me a chance.
Blogger! Blogger! We’re here,
Don’t get afraid as we are near.
We are here, we are dear.
We are united, and we are fearless.
We will stand together, and we will live together.
We cannot be shaken, as all the tremors are
absorbed. We are ready for war,
but we would love to live in peace.
However, we are ready.
We are ready for war against injustice.
We are ready for war against inhumanity.
We are ready for war against terrorism.
We are one, and ‘I’ is none.

PS: Is this a poem?
PS: This is my second attempt in poetry
PS: Did you like it?..please let me know
PS: Holidays over....
PS: Back to blogosphere, I'm happy